First round of chemo done!

I’ve survived my first chemo cycle and I can honestly say that it has been a rollercoaster. No two days are the same and it is true when they say you have good and bad days. Towards the end of the cycle I had a 24-hour drip of methotrexate. For me this was the nasty one. A few days after having it I got mouth sores and ulcers which made it impossible for me to eat. This has caused me to lose weight and being the size that I am I really can’t afford to lose weight during treatment. The mouth sores have been the worst side effect for me. Not only do I have to live off milkshakes, but I would wake up with blood in my mouth during the night. I also cancelled visitors due to the fact that it hurt to speak! Methotrexate also caused me to have eczema on both hands. I’ve never had eczema before and it started to get really bad on my right hand. Luckily, the dermatologist prescribed a steroid cream and it does seem to be getting better. My counts are now going back up which means I’m finally healing and the nasty side effects are disappearing.

Emotionally, this week has been tough but everything I’ve been through has been do-able. It’s uncomfortable, annoying, frustrating but it’s do-able. Remember, I’m on an intense, high dosage chemo treatment as an in- patient. I don’t get to go home like some people. Physically, its draining and exhausting. Emotionally, I found that I just needed to cry a few times to get out the negative energy. One of the nurses hugged me when she could see I was in pain with my mouth and hands and I didn’t stop crying for half an hour. Then I got pain relief, had a nap and felt alright again.

So for now, I’m just focusing on healing before my second cycle. The doctor has said that I can go home before the next round of chemo and I can’t wait for a change of scenery. The next cycle is only 9 days long so I’m hoping it’s not as intense or has as many nasty side effects as the first one. I have to say that I totally made the right decision to have treatment in the UK. My mam has been amazing! She sleeps in my room when she can and she helps me wash myself when I’m wired up to machines and fatigue sets in. In this kind of situation, you need that one person to really help you. My mam will do anything for me…she is the best mam in the world!

I’ve found that taking one day at a time and setting small goals is what gets me through the whole thing. Walking around each day is a big achievement, and very frustrating considering how active I was before treatment. Having visitors helps to pass the time, but I’ve found that I only like people to come when I’m feeling alright. Everyone’s different, but when I’m sick and feeling crappy I prefer to be on my own or with one close person. For me, the day’s fly by. By the time I get up, stomach my breakfast, take my tablets and tidy up its half way through the day. A routine is always good to stick to and time seems to be going very quickly. More days down, fewer days to go!

22 thoughts on “First round of chemo done!”

  1. Really feel for you!!! …I feel so humbled when I read this and have been moaning about something trivial!! .. bless your heart honey!! It’s so hard trying to be strong all the time!! We are all rooting for you!… and I do remember you in my prayers!. God bless! Xxx

    1. Thank you so much Jane! I really appreciate the comments and support from you. It’s tough but I’m fighting through it! xxx

  2. Hey miss !! I honestly miss you so much and your positivity during a rough time is honestly so inspiring. You were so helpful and fun to be around and now we are starting geography coursework without you:( ALSO GUESS WHAT i got an A* on my mock thanks to you !!! Thank you for being there for all of and I know you can get through this !! Keep onto your positive vibes and continue to stay strong Xxx

    Love and miss you,
    Ishika (your favourite student) xxx

    1. Hey Ishika! I am sooooo proud of you for getting an A*! Well done!!!! Keep it up and no doubt you will get an A* in the summer. Thank you so much for the lovely message and positivity, It’s a tough time but I’m hoping to be back soon. Keep revising and I expect an A* for your coursework too! Lol. Take care xx

  3. Hey miss !! I honestly miss you so much and your positivity honestly so inspiring. You were so helpful and fun to be around and now we are starting geography coursework without you:( ALSO GUESS WHAT i got an A* on my mock thanks to you !!! Thank you for being there for all of and I know you can get through this !! Keep onto your positive vibes and continue to stay strong Xxx

    Love and miss you,
    Ishika (your favourite student) xxx

  4. Dear Sarah, you are doing great Sweety xx It seems that you are a strong person and you will fight for it 🙂 we will pray for you and always be by your side xx

  5. Hey Sarah. My name is Jane and my son, Sean, is in year 8. I watched my mum battle cancer so I understand what you’re going through. Stay strong and keep fighting! I will keep you in my prayers and I can’t wait to see you back in Dubai soon! xx

  6. Keep on fighting… you can do this… I was diagnosed last April 2016 with Diffuse large b-cell lymphoma NHL stage 1 and I had to go through 6 rounds of chemo n 20 rounds of radiation treatment to a tumor that was the size of a clementine in my stomach. I am now in remission since December 2016 and I can tell u that it gets better. Make sure u keep your family right next to you cus when u can’t fight no more they will fight for u. I lost my mom last year in February n my dad passed away 7 years ago so it was so hard to not have them there with me but my husband and my son and my 8 sisters n 5 brothers were there for me every step of the way… including great friend of mine too. I couldn’t of done it without them. You keep of the good fight because remember that you have cancer and you will beat it. Thank you for sharing your story with us.

    1. Thank you Sia for sharing your story too. I totally agree that family is very important during the battle. I can’t imagine what it must be like to go through treatment without your parents, you must be so strong!! Thank you for commenting and I will keep battling 🙂 xx

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